6.5.11

Laments and Relative Perspectives towards Tolerance

Wooooaaaaahhhhh.
There are a lot of things happening in life.
Almost all aspects of life, eto nah.
Welcome to life, the spice, the halo, and the shit out it.
Happiness comes in. My family, friends and close friends surely supplement that.
Pero let's try to look at the negative side.
the Binary Opposites.
Wala naman sigurong purely bad at heart.
Siguro, in terms of perspectives, it's so so so relative.
Differences come along the way.
Like thinking na cguro we're friends naman,
so it's no way of offense to the other party.
Even if you jerk at him, it's okay.
Kasi nga, para sa'yo, friendship can cross borders.
Sige, there's a relative standard din.
Like which people yung more likely pipiliin mong
magsubject ng greater tolerance sa mga bagay na yan.
Maybe, or more likely, sa mga close friends.
Pero may fail.
Kasi hindi lahat ng instances, tama ang isang tao sa pag-identify
kung sino yung mga tao na mapagkakatiwalaan niya at hindi.
That is what history is all about.
Learning from the past so that the mistake won't happen again.
Now, following that logic,
how will a certain person really deal with history and its travails?
Andiyan ang dichotomy.
Because in terms of a person's likelihood to learn from it and not do it again,
sobrang lawak ng difference.
Variety of people in a world where sanity and insanity can coexist.
Pero beyond that, what really makes a person a human? pure at heart?
Like I'm talking of the morally acceptable standards we used to have now.
Bakit kaya may mga standards in the first place?
And what if we take it out from the scenario?
KASI naman, kung walang standards, ang gulo na nang mundo.
Hindi mo alam kung sino ang mabait at sino ung masama.
Kasi wala ngang standard 'di ba?
so there's a dire need.
Pero if you wanna talk about the evolution of those standards.
necessary din.
kasi reflective ung standards based on public acceptability.
Pero why is it na relative yung standard, person by person.
Even if pinanganak tayong mayroon nang kinikilalang acceptable values,
ang perception ng mga values na yun ay hindi pareho.
Kaya nga may kanya-kanya tayong utak.
Kasi that's the value of differences.
Kaya nga may bobo at may matalino.
Kasi, iba-iba yung pag-intindi natin sa mga bagay.
Paano naman pag matalino lahat yung mga kasama mo.
Yung baga alam nila kung ano ang mali at ano ang hindi.
Mayron pa ring difference.
Experience mold your perception of things.
For example, kung may history ka of rejection.
More likely, ang perception mo of friendship has more standards.
Kasi yung pagkukulang ng iba, gusto mong punan ng iba.
Transfer of burden
Pero hindi xa explicit.
KASI obviously, merong denial strategies.
Being insecure, yun ang standards ng intrusion to privacy.
In relationships naman,
merong natural na consequential progression of things.
May mga times na nag-eexpect ka, and you end up rotting.
*Like texting a cheesy message and you get no reply (hindi ako 'yun!!!)
Meron namang times na unexpectedly, dumarating ang mga surprises.
(Yun ang masaya, pwede ako dun)
Pero yun nga. The more you expect, the more you bleed when stains exist.
Ayoko nang mag-sound melancholic,
basta.kung para kami sa isa't-isa, then be it.
Ayoko ng quasi-intimacy, yung may lies just to feed on maintaining the bond.(***past)
Now, everything's fine.
I just hope na genuine na yung mga things ngayon.
This is life kasi.
People we encounter define what we could be and what we are to other people.
How much do you really sacrifice for love?
And what brand of commitment is needed to make it strong.
As of now, I really don't wanna lose her.
I'm afraid na baka dumating yung panahon na she'll loosen her grip on me
Kasi na-susuffocate na xa on our engagement.
That's why I'm giving her so much freedom.
Freedom to do things in her life.
If she still abides, fine.
ALAM naman kasi niya ang strengths and weaknesses ng relationship namin.
Ultimate weakness yung selos.
Ba't kasi jealousy existed?
Pero one thing, if there's a reason, bakit naman hindi diba?
hahaha
So before this get's even more random.
Cge , let's just stand on it na lang.
MAHIRAP ang sitwasyon ng isang --- ****y.
And ayoko namang maging ganun ulit.
So I gotta do everything to make her stay.
Kasi kami na naman ngayon.
Sana maintindihan niya ako.
Kasi mahal na mahal ko siya.

I feel like I wanna vomit.
Nasusuka sa Tagalog.hahaha.
So mag-bisaya na lang ko.
Enrollment will come soon.
First off my concern.
DOST clearance and kanang maka-enroll ko ug subjects na sayun.
Unta.
para OKEY ra ang tanan.
By the way,coping up and resiliency.
good character juud ni xa bah.
being resilient means positive imung paglantaw sa challenges sa kinabuhi.
aha na gud ang bisaya?
hahaha.
by the way, in-ana gyud.
kung wala nakai mabuhat, mao nana.,
you'll end up believing nah mao na lang jud na imung mabuhat, ang mag-adjust.
after all, wala poi mahitabo nimo ug mag-grieve ka for the whole life.
pero of course,
according to ehow.com, kung saan naa koie loyalty award,
give your self a time to grieve
tama pod nah
lisud pod
kai if you follow the logic, ang grief man gud
mahitabo ra na xa para sa mga butang nga atuang gitagaan ug importance
kung dili xa importante
why would we grieve for it? unless something's wrong with you.
so naa jd nai period of adjustment.
grieve for let's say a week.
but after that, live your life again.
after all, your life is a direct effect of your choice.
tanan conditions nimo are manifestations of your choices.
so kung mupili ka nga ma-fool,
bad chooser diay ka? naa diay word na chooser?
hahaha.wala man gud nag highlight
cge, let's make it sound better
decision-maker.
now, in this point in time
may new phrase ako
"press the button"
hahaha
sana ang life ganyan kadali, technically for others
pero not for me
kasi gusto ko
lahat ng achievements
pinaghihirapan
and that's exactly what the past has taught me
There's just a random thought that came into my mind.
Ewan.weird.
Like it's more of the difference between saying something and doing it for real.
that's weird, scratch the thought.
anyway, i woke up in the morning with some kind of fear
pero now
i've been asking myself, bakit nga din naman dIBA?
ung mga matatakot, dapat yung gumawa ng mali
siguro dahil hindi ako used to the fact na i'm speaking up against them now
pero i think this is just how a Prime Minister should function
blatant attacks.
I just remembered.20 na pala ako.
hahaha
When I used to ask myself kung unsa jud akung nabuhat sa 20 years.
I don't know.
Daghan naman siguro.
Pero contributory kaha tong tanan para sa akuang greater good?
Or at least, naka-catalyze ba xa para ma-enable akung goals in life?
Sabi ni LT, daghan na daw ko'g na-achieve, left unnoticed lang nako.
Sabi ni Rod, sabay lang daw ko sa alon ng academics.
Sabi ni Jeff, disturbed daw ko sa academics.
Sabi ni Eva, bahala pa daw ug maskin unsa akung buhaton ug dili ko magstudy, mupasar jud daw gihapon ko.
Unsa gyud diay kaha ang akuang priorities in life?
Una, family. then friends. then myself.
Ang pag narrow down niya, sakto ra man guro.
Aie wait, kailangan ba unahon ang friends kaysa sa self?
Kasi acad is part of the self , right?
aie tama. Una ang self ,before the friends.
Pero walay any sort of rejection ana ah.
In-ana lang jud nah.
In-ana man gud ang human development model.
Oh, I remember this sa Philosophy book na gihatag ni Jerven Chua.
Anyway, I'll see my friends tomorrow in CDO.
Why is life expensive?hahaha.
in-ana na pod jud na.
aie dili man.it's highly mitigable, also discretionary.
lageh bah.
so non-issue xa.
hahaha
*like i wrote here "cge, ipost ko na ni kay basahon sa akuang tita".
hahaha.
and she really did.hahaha
by the way, gotta continue.
she told me na i'm thinking too much.
oo nga.lageh ba.i'm thinking too much.
things na dapat left in the air.
i will live a happy life.
HAIE.(in a Japanese tone, it means "yes")
I'm still so young to think for it.
Pero it's good na I have this realizations na lang pod kay blog is really a good keepsake for thoughts.
And like this blog has recorded my life ever since 3rd year.
hahaha.
so gnyan kami kabestfriend nito.
i gotta sign-off now
will take my lunch, eh alas-singko na.
pero ok lang.at least, i've got the blog listening to me.


to the readers:

God Bless!
Ki o tsukete!





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